Wow, I can't believe that next month my hubs and I will celebrate our second wedding anniversary. The last two years have gone faster than any other time in my life, even if at times it felt like I was stuck in slow motion with no hope of ever moving forward.
Many things have changed in my life these past two years, besides the normal changes that go along with hitching up with another human being. I think the biggest change has been my decision to let go of things (or people) who brought nothing positive to my little world.
I've had to distance myself from some "friends" who brought nothing but upheaval into my life simply because they thought they knew certain dynamics of the sometimes complicated relationship that my husband and I share. I admit, that if I were an outsider looking in, I might not understand what the two of us have. But the important thing is that the two of us understand what we have and our love is the kind of love that defies logic. I know that sounds silly, but it's totally true. I have an absolute love and respect for my hubs, and he knows that, so as long as he knows how I feel about him, I don't care anymore what anyone thinks or their perception of how I treat him.
Wow, sorry, didn't really mean to go off on that. But I guess it was bothering me and I wanted, or maybe really needed, to get it out there.
Despite the fact that a few relationships may have fallen by the wayside, the relationships that I need to be in tact are better than ever. I continue to have a beautiful relationship with my son, even as he inches closer and closer to becoming a teenager. With every year I realize more how blessed I am to have such an amazing child. He really has a beautiful soul, and is one of the kindest people I know. I love the open communication that we are able to share, and I know some people say that will change, but honestly I don't see it happening. I also have been able to share the relationship with my stepchildren that I had hoped for, but worried wouldn't happen. They are amazing kids, well, adults now. We have been able to start spending more time with them and it's been wonderful getting to be there for milestones. I've also been fortunate enough to forge a relationship with their mom and even her side of the family. They have all been so kind to me, and treated me like a part of the family. I cannot even express how much it means to me. I am so happy that we can all come together at the important moments in our children's lives and not just tolerate one another, but actually enjoy each other's company.
Life is always evolving, and we can either evolve with it or become sad and bitter. I have spent plenty of time being bitter about things that I should have let go a long time ago. My goal now is to just keep moving forward, and to do it (mostly) with a smile on my face.
Day 2: Amish Country, Pennsylvania
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